Sometimes

sometimes i feel strange even with people who are close with me . sometimes i feel " i dont know who you are " . sometimes i feel alone in this world although there are a lot of people around me . sometimes i feel " for what purpose we live in this world " . sometimes i feel  to be the happiest person . sometimes i feel i can hold the world.  BUT yes that's all happens sometimes and i dont know when it will happen .

when she was just a girl She expected the world 

but it flew away from her reach so 

She ran away in her sleepand dreamed of

 Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise

Everytime she closed her eyes

(Coldplay_Paradise)

feeling down

gezzzz ! i really tired with all of this routines all of this pressure . i need take a rest and forget it just a while .
BUT I CANNNNNTTTTT . i always thought about it ( oh my thesis you really driving me crazy )

ahhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
geeerrrrrwwww i wanna free aaaaahhhh i hope this is to be complete soon

grow up ? happy ?

have you ever think like this :" the more you grow the more you hurt someone's feelings "?

when you was child even you're act annoyed , people arround you can accept it and you just get chance to fix it . 
Now when we are grow up , just once you acting annoying , people immediately make a space with you :( .
that's why i hate being old :( , if there's really neverland i wanna live at there bring all of things who can make me happy.
when you grow up You will rarely smile , You always think to look nice (and this is makes us fake ) , You always think
to look mature .
For me become mature is not easy and  need a long long time for adaption it :(

Fast & Furious 6

Guys , the trailer is finally go out !

Who doesnt curious with the last clue about Leti , right ? actually i like leti character so its so happy to see this movie . Gonna see Michelle Rodriguez  again with one of my favourite actor Vin Diesel !
Oh and the said one Indonesian actor will join to this movie to , Joe Taslim who we know from The Raid . So proud with you Joe ! 

and until the movie will be at cinema on may lets we wait , because its worth guys :) 
lets see this trailer :

abstrack

wow i think so much dust in my blog even a spider has made ​​a nest in here. again because my busy activity i cant make a new post . actually i'm not so busy . i still have time to rest watch movie or just sleep for a long hours . But i busy to think hoho :D
So many events that I've been through lately . My grandma has passed away just 4 months since my grandpa passed away, my uncle has passed away too just 2weeks ago . its so sad so many people gone :(
i also must take care about my college who i left maybe arround one month ,well guys things do not stop there BUT i must move and life must go on .people should continue to live life

i already finished time to learn the material on my college , now i start to preparing thesis as a requirement for graduation.i will hve many time in home now ((YAY or NAY ???? )) So wish me luck guys so I can complete quickly and the results are satisfactory :)

even so much to do and si much to think but i dont wanna cease to be creative and try new things like these are picture guys :)

Top : Fashionistas

Shoes : Lolita Butik

Necklace : Kimilatta

Pants : NezWardrobe

brave and face off

Lately i think i cant smile or laugh , i have so many problem . Sometimes i wanna cry but i always hold it .

I dont wanna people know and see my tears , but sometimes i'm too tired to be strong and always struggling to deal with all of problem alone . I really know the other people arround is busy and they have their own problem ,so beacuse of that i dont wanna share about my story and i dont wanna make them troubled by my  problem.

Life is hard .... but please dont push me too much dont force me too much .....

Well,whatever happens i must be brave and face off of all of the problem by myself i think coz when you still can breathe you always have problem . Just put your smile on your face dont let the other think your sloppy guys :)

Today i get chance to go abroad and do study exchange but I let that opportunity ,because i dont have enough money to go . Ah so sad guys i hope next time i will have another good chance and enough money of course :)

well , that's my short story and these are my another style guys . like my story i must brave , so i try to brave choose this style which is actually i think i look different .

odd , old , omg :)

sometimes life is not like what your planning , but you must take another plan and dont be stress !
and when you have a problem not always you must tell that to everyone sometimes even you tell them they dont understand maybe they can judge you ,push you !
when nobody cant accept your problem and wont understand you it doesnt matter ! you dont have to cry , you just silent and keep it , give your smile to them and hidding your upset mood .
well , i dont know if that situation hapen to you guys, lately this is happen to me i cant get permission to speak what i feel and i'm just silent like a usually :(
i think its enough for my (sad ? ) story , i wanna share another style i created :)
These are the picture :

red noodles

woho ,actually i have more time but i dont know too lazy to make post on my blog,sorry people :)
last thursday i make spaghetti and i wanna share that :)

i just made this spaghetti with a simple ingredients and of course because I want to eat as soon as possible, i just add cheese , onion, and chicken breast i prefer to ust cut it into cubes rather than chopped it.

my sauce is ready :)

nom nom nom,lets eat :)

orange cake

its been a long time since my last post, yeaah because i'm a little busy lately.
Now I've become active in college activities, i think this period will be the hard time .
But i have more spare time ,because i just take six lesson in this period and I have not started course i must waiting my friend come back from her duty in village.
May i get a lot of luck and always healthy for to through all activities.

Some time ago, i try to make cake of course with the help of my mother :)
but because my mother afraid if i disrupt the cake,she decide to make the cake by herself and she told me to look her making cake :)
but for decoration she give to me :)

for decoration that cake i make cream by myself , i just mix flour sugar ,butter and grated orange peel for create fresh taste.And yes te cream not white like normally cake its little bit orange :)

besides cream i use canned orange

                              grated cheese

                              grated chocolate

and then i just greasing and sprinkling those for the topping so orange cake is finish :)

and its ready to eat :)

Finally its over

Yesterday 10August 2012 my duty is over ! yeaaaay !

i got many experience and learning of life at Margodadi Village,thanks to all citizens at there.

i know how to be teacher for children ,how to be grateful ,how to be patient ,adapt to new environments.

all citizens at Margodadi Village is so kind, when i go out i just give them smile they will give smile back even we dont know each other.

i learn to accept their culture even is strange for me,but its fun :)

we as college student is always considered special by all citizens.

but for me the hardest thing is this duty is member of my group. its hard to combine 15 people .I must be patient to facing them,not many friend i like but even i hate someone i just keep it yes because we dont know each other before i think.But fortunately there are many friends matched with me.

after all this time 40days is over :)

Thanks God for this extraordinary experience :)

i love that kid who the most forward ,he is satrio, he is so fun im gonna miss him :)

Thank to my brother and his friend,who would come to be our photographer :)

keep smile :(

i'm make this post from my kkn location , really frustation here
i cried a lot today because them, i'm feel alone ,nobody can make me always ch eerfull

i'm just post about that today, coz i feel really frustation

wish me luck guys (:

i'm home !! :)

hiiiiii i'm really happy i have 4days off from my KKN , i really frustation during KKN and hard to trust someone :(
but i try to make a good relationship with the other people even i dont like him/her .
coz everyone have their pesonality .
i'm just must more patient until all of this finish ( FIGHTING WINDY !!!!! )

Keep Holding On

oleh: Avril Lavigne

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and difference
I'll fight and difference
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

*dont know i think this song represents what I feel *

i dont wanna go :(

hello people ,maybe this is my last post until 40days later ,coz tomorrow i must go to Margodadi village .
aaaaaahhhhhh you know i dont wanna go .....................................
i feel lonely and stressful :(
so sorry i think nobody can know what i'm feel , so i never tell to anyone . i keep that !
aaaaaaaaahhh dont know what i say , im just afraid
May Allah bless me , and i hope you all of you give me support and wish me luck


see you in 40days later :(

skater girl

actually i'm not interest with skateboarding , maybe because i cant play it and for me skateboard is extreme sport.I've heard many guys have injury because skateboarding and yes i'm afraid ,haha you know even ride bicyle i cant :p . So can u imagine whether can i play skateboard or no ?
skateboard in here is property my brother ,he can and he was addicted to play it but now he rarely skateboarding.
i just take pict with skateboard and maybe if someday i can play it this is an example my outfit when i play skateboard ,even you play extreme sports i think you must look stylish :)

p.s : i got accident whe i take these photo :(

complicated

I'm really stress to think about KKN ..............................................
wanna cry ,all of my friend almos ready and already packing ,but me ???? i'm still lay in my bed watch tv, sit in front of computer .
i dont know what i must to do at there and sorry i think my team is make me oppressed ,wanna scream but i dont know with whom i must say about this :( coz i know everyone have their own 
problem and i think i'm too much grumble -_-

by the way 25 June is Rain Bi a.k.a Jung Ji- Hoon everyone must know him because his actor in popular drama korea
 "Full House" as Yong Jae ... hoho i love him so much :)

he is implementing army now ,i hope he always keep healthy comeback soon and please come to Indonesia :)

WISH ME LUCK GUYS FOR THE FUTURE DAY (y) !!!!

finished exams

Yipiiiiiiiiii !!!!! my final exam is already finish !!!
bu its not over :( i have another thing to do , and that is KKN . KKN is program from my college and we must do that . I will go to the village with the other friend from another faculty and major from my college . We never know each other and we must make team work from 2 July to 10 august ...
owww i cant breath to thini about it , i hope i can do the  program very well and get good score from the lecturer.

so ... yes this is my habbit after i feel frustation i always think a new syle . And these are my pict :)
* i deliberate make all of my photo blur *

hoho, this denim jacket actually is very old,because i have it since in junior high school and now my age is 19yo but still good ,right ?

Necklace from Antyk Butyk

Skirt from Fashionistas

Bag from Ciciero

Boots from Tyshopps

by the way i join Diana Caitilin giveaway , really nize prize . and i hope i get 

lets join together HERE !